Is This Thing On?

Dear Diary

No that’s lame. Ugh. How does one write in a freaking journal??  I’m like a whole ass grown up. We don’t write in diaries, but my therapist said pocket dimension travel was no excuse not to keep up on it.

So I guess here we go with a recap of the weirdness that seems to have become my life.  So after the pocket dimension we stumbled into, that’s a whole thing I really don’t want to get into but it was a lot.  We were trying to search for my genetic…matching…person…whatever the women whose lady parts I came out of and we stumbled upon a ritual.  It was insane! There were bird people and then we met a man that could control time and a woman with a claw for a hand and vampires and gods and different bird people and like so much stuff! But really that just felt at this point like normal superhero stuff.

So the big personal development was that when we got back and got settled someone came to the tower claiming to be my mom! I was basically frozen in place. And again stress seems to trigger me into a snow storm, still haven’t figured out how to control that.  She turned out to be my biological grandmother but she couldn’t have looked more than 45!  She was extremely powerful, I could feel it.  Like I could sense that she could break me in half with barely a move.  She was also profoundly rude but I did find out that my genetic person was exiled from Emerald City because she didn’t want to take up her responsibility.  Which felt like my grandmother was blaming on me. She wants me to meet her in the forest to learn more about my powers and family but I’m not sure I want to go.  Feeling how powerful she was compared to me I really am frightened I shouldn’t keep going on this journey and just accept who I am now.

After my grandmother left I went back upstairs and everyone was so nice and worried about me.  Which was nice.  Ethan even attempted boob pancakes for me! It was really sweet of him to try, they looked more like an amoeba but it was a valiant effort.

So I totes forgot! After the pocket dimension stuff we were pulled into an alternate reality and joined back up with the Freedom League Dark.  Luckily they weren’t too upset that I threw ice spears at just about all of them.  They also seemed confused about why we were there.  Luckily it seemed to be happening out of time and the giant vampire god wannabe was kind of stuck in place until we got back. We did get placed in all different worlds which brought on new costumes and our new team member! Carol is great! She’s from an even different dimension and seems to be Professor C’s dead wife! I mean maybe they should be seeing a therapist too…She’s a punch first and ask question later kinda person and honestly yes please.

So after all the drama of dimension hopping,new team members and family drama Peter, Carol and I went out and saw the band we planned to see.  I got to talk to my Mom and Dad. I didn’t mention my grandmother to them because I want to learn a little more before I tell them anything.  I also only wanted to traumatize them a little bit with everything that we’ve been through so I only mentioned the giant Vampire haha!

So after all of my own shit Peter and Tommy are going through some troubles. Ethan and I have been trying to keep them together.  I think Tommy is totes going to break up with him but Ethan assures me that’s not the case. I actually went to class but just really couldn’t focus on Art in the Modern Imagination: Athena to Lady Gaga.  Luckily we got buzzed to help at a prison, something to do with power dampeners maybe not working to their full power, I dunno I was only half listening because I was just excited to leave school.  I asked Ethan to come get me, I mean honestly I just don’t like being alone in my own thoughts sometimes and Ethan is nice to talk to because he doesn’t make me talk.  He can be a little over zealous at times but it was nice to talk about PT (Peter and Tommy, that’s our code for them haha,) like they were just some kids in our class and not a superpowered human and fresh out the closet cutie.

But for the first time in my life when we got to the prison and all the prisoners were starting to try to escape I found myself frozen again.  The only thing I could see was how powerful I’m not and what I couldn’t do.  I grabbed Ethan’s hand and suddenly I melted.  It was like feeling that he was there made me realize I can do anything.

Wow that’s enough feelings for me…maybe I should do this more often so I’m not just blabbering on and on and on.  What am I doing I’m talking to a stupid piece of paper like it’s a person…ok I’m done now, bye I guess.